.time will heal.

2008-05-17T22:59:00.000+08:00

hello hello. just book out yest.
sianx.
wanna sleep already. nitex.

2008-05-12T22:48:00.002+08:00

i'm goin training tmr. sianx. i wanna cry. i'm not used to ppl screaming and shouting commands at me. except from sb la. other den my mother. haha. 6 weeks of training. sianx siol. haix.

I'M GONNA MISS U ALL.
AND U AND U AND U. AND CHOCOLATE!!

2008-05-07T23:39:00.000+08:00

they still haven change. still the same.

and khai i hate u!!

2008-05-03T16:43:00.002+08:00

okay okay.
yes yes. the darkest place ever will be my sister room. really dark. not even a ray of sunlight has enter. haha. and also the place that has the most hair other then the salon will be my sister room too. haha. wat the hell ah. so many hair on the floor and so dark oso. knn.

go and clean up your room.!!

2008-04-28T21:59:00.002+08:00

hello.
today when to old police academy for an interview. haha. i'm goin to become auxiliary police officer under aetos if i pass the medical test tmr. hee. i feel like i'm goin for NS ah. aiyo. the training will be for 6 weeks. den onli every sat den i can book out ah. den sun or mon den i book in. sianx for 6 weeks leh. den i will knw how wx and yh feel like in camp. haha. how seh. 6 weeks like very long ah. onli got 1 day for me to enjoy. hmmm. and i oso gain 3 kg seh. from 48kg to 51kg. wow. 3 kg is a lot seh. haix. quite excited to knw how the training feels like. can learn how to use the gun. hee.
and also i have to cut my hair short. wasted. all this while i keep my hair long for nothing ah. miss my hair. haix. sad. so i better enjoy first before i go for training. if i pass my medical. tc.

tata.

2008-04-24T01:58:00.003+08:00

yes yes. the blood is pouring out. damn. ;)

i'm practically doin nothing right now. waiting for the match between man u and barcelona to start. go man u.!! so long la. aiyo. hmmm. sianx man. talking to black in msn. long time no see him online.
today joanne come to my house. dont knw why when she use the com there is a lot of error.haha.

i knw life is full of regrets. if i could turn back time i will do wad i'm suppose to do right. hmmm. a lot of thing have to be correct. really theres a lot. cant even use my fingers and toes to count. but i wont change the time dat we spent together. i will treasure it always. hee.

why must human fight to solve problem. why cant they just talk things out. when will there be peace in this world. when will there be peace between races and religion. but i knw all this dispute wont stop till the world end.

i wont ask for more but just for you to take care of yourself. u can work all u wan but u must need enough rest. okay. remember to eat.

why ppl keep asking me, why am i happy go lucky?? i dont understand.

gates of babylon.
tata.

2008-04-17T20:29:00.002+08:00

yest me and joanne were trying to do the jumpstyle.hahax. we were sweating like crazy ah. but our jumpstyle dont turn out the way it is. hee.
so i wanna knw how to do dat. it look cool and nice ah. :)

patrick jumpen.

2008-04-16T22:19:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!
:)

2008-04-12T01:09:00.002+08:00

today was the first time i ride a bmw. hahax.
i knw, i knw. like sua ku rite. but wadeva.
i also met bernice and felix today. went to gardens to company them to eat.
felix so funny la. park the car but dont knw where he park it. hahax.

den now waiting for joanne to come back. dont knw she meeting me a not.
i now feel like sleeping oso not feeling quite well.=(

flu.cough.flu.cough.flu.cough.flu.cough.

2008-04-10T17:19:00.002+08:00

hie i'm back.
hmm now at my cousin house doin nothin so thought of typing.
visit my grandma. she is sick ah. her leg seems swollen cant really walk.`
yest watch man u against roma. woo hoo. man u are through.
nxt will be barcelona. so better watch out.

just now went cyclin at clarke quay.haha.
the china girl ah very funny leh. try to squeeze into a very small path den her breast nearly hit my uncle face. lol. kuku siol. she is fat and her breast big la. dots.

and is let meet up soon ya. long time no see. misses.
its been a long time since i meet baidah and bad.
all like very busy ah.

mayb goin over to zhi li work place tmr to get a job.
hopefully i can get the job ah.
but i scared i cant cope with the job. sianx.

2008-03-31T23:34:00.003+08:00

look at my sister. focus seh nga bat bende cube tu. =) kuku.

anyway yest went out wif dayah and my sister. give dayah a beating cause her birthday.
den went to eat new york pizza cause my stomach is damn empty. hmm.
dayah was like so scared to bring her bubble tea to the nyp area. she keep saying no outside food and drink allow. ape jek. mepek ah. at last minum jugak. too thirsty. skodol lu.
after dat we walk to toys'r'us. play iwf the barney puppet and horn. like small kid seh. bodoh.!
after walking and crapping we have no idea where to go. so dayah decided to meet her bf, my sister also. so i went to bugis to meet joanne and xiu yue. walk around bugis street like nobody business. suprisingly dat day not a lot of ppl. ey bought some clothes and accessories. joanne dress is still wif me. she forget to take.
walk and walk till bugis juction den jaci arrive. wif her friends. accompany joanne buy her bubble tea den wait for her to go to the toilet. while we drank her bubble tea. hahax.
they decided to walk to bugis street again and my father start calling me. argh!! irritating siol.
so i decided to head home.
msg is on the bus. got a lot of bangla around. i was like the onli girl around la. wha lau.
takut ader, seram pun ader.

today went cycling. saw is at his shop.
dari jauh da npk seh. botak.! haha.
sadly today will be his last day working because the hawker centre is renovating. hmm.
takpela nak bukak skola pun kan.
now waiting for him to finish work den mayb later goin to meet him.

Happy Birthday to Dayah.!!
da lepas umur da.
menyampah.!!

tata.

2008-03-26T23:35:00.002+08:00

yesterday i met joanne. we sat at the coffee shop and talk some cock and breast.
den dere dis guy wanna knw joanne. haha. forget it la. your face cannot make it.
talk some, smoke some. den we decided to go to the toilet to do our business.
head on to prime to buy cracker and sat down to slack. i think joanne need to knw how to control her action. feel like slapping her sometimes. hahax.
after all the talking. we decided to go to joanne house and try some jeans cause she dont want to wear it anymore. so fucking funny la. the jeans was like small and she force me to try it. guess wad, i cant pull the jeans up. its stuck at my thigh. it was tiring la. hmmm.
went home straight.=)=)

tata.

2008-03-25T23:25:00.004+08:00

today went for an interview with aylyn at paya lebar.
the weather is damn hot siol. the heat makes me hand itch.
dont knw whether i qualify for that job not. hope yes ah.

after dat went to makan den to my aunt house at serangoon.
my sister la wanna meet rayyan hakeem so much. hahax.
imagine a small boy saying mak kau!! so cute sia.
and guess wad he like pink color. hoho.

just receive a comment at friendster from bad.
this time he dreamt about me kutip chocolate.
haha. wat e hell.
just the other day i dreamt about him kutip rokok.
nxt time mayb mimpi baidah. ntah kutip ape pulak.=)

tata.

2008-03-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

YEAH!!

Man u beat Liverpool today 3-0. woo hoo.
now i wish dat Arsenal and Chelsea draw or better, Arsenal lose.!!
let now watch the outcome of the match.

tata.

2008-03-22T00:55:00.003+08:00

boredom will kill me.seriously.haix.

just now me, khai and salam went to changi airport.
haha.keep playing around.and dat khai was acting as if he comes from london. ccb.
salam and khai pinching each other. till salam has dis blue black.
but smaller den wad i have ah. not from the result of khai pinching. wtf ah.
den we went to the food court to eat. khai was pissed wif the makcik.
i bought the rice for $3 but he bought it for $4. lol. pantat.
took the sky train and dere dis one irritating boy ah.
keep shouting non-stop dont knw for wad ah.
after dat walk around a while den went back.
sorry salam for grabbing your head.haha.
hmmm.

i keep you my dirty little secret.=)=)

2008-03-14T16:54:00.003+08:00

i just come back from my interview at boat quay.
now listening to michael jackson songs.woo hoo.
"smooth criminal"
haix.
very bored.
dont knw wanna go play ball anot. quite tired.
feel like playing but tired.hmmm.

3 months have pass. miss him. hmmm.=(

2008-03-09T06:46:00.002+08:00

actually now i can't sleep.
try to occupy myself now.
watching fairly odd parent. hahax.
having headache right now. it sux. fcuk.
not sure whether tmr still can go out not.
not enough time to sleep. confirm cannot wake up.

k la.
gtg.
c ya.

2008-02-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

i dont knw how to express my feeling to dis person.
how!?
stress siol!!

2008-02-25T23:50:00.003+08:00

long time since i blog.
wasnt at home all the time.
most of time i spend it outside lepak.
wads goin to happen to me seh. lepak here and dere.i dont wanna be like minah. no way!
dis few days was fun. hahax. especially when there is e four of us.
and Bad. not forgetting him at all.

repair my hp oso. its sux la. spoil. corrupted i think.
god damn it.
e one who served me is arwah zaid cousin. but i dont think he regconised me.
den after dat meet ubaidah at kovan.
khai khai. be e man la.hahax.
stress for wad.kuku.
sit at park den saw Zul.baru habis keje.
den when ey went back left me and Bad talking about. hantu. scary seh. very scary.
dats was how i spent my day.
can say everyday.=(

i'm looking for job oso.haix.

2008-02-19T20:46:00.002+08:00

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Dirimu sayang.

2008-02-18T17:21:00.005+08:00

Yest night me hang out wif Salam, Khai and Is.
watch the video.=)
they are so funny ppl. hahax.
yup yup.
so many thing to talk about so little time.hee.

haix.some ppl are just look nice on the outside but bad on the inside.

C ya.

2008-02-18T00:00:00.002+08:00

today 17 feb, yesh.
history was made. me beating Bad at pool was great.hahax.
sorry Bad i think its just pure luck la. but right i still beat u. hahax 5-4. yeah.

Everybody has it own deep dark secret.
yup yup.
me and Bad talk a lot.hee.
i also tell Ubaidah something.shhh. secret dok.=)

i wanna get high.

i think its better for me to stay away from u.
yesh i shld.

i dreamt of him again last fri.<3
sweet...

2008-02-16T05:33:00.001+08:00

I MAKE SPOIL WAN SPECS!!
DAMN.
SORRY WAN.!!=(

2008-02-15T23:07:00.004+08:00

Yest was valentine day.
and guess wad!!
i got the best birthday present dat anybody wont give me.
and yesh.
Bad make me fall down infront of a lot of ppl at bugis.
wtf.lol.so funny siol...=)
haha.wad a day.

i just came back from slacking wif hafiz gemuk and bad.
so funny sia ey all.=)

i dont like gdbye.
so see ya later.
got this phrase from a movie i watch yest.hehe.

i dreamt about him again.
look like he is happy.<3

2008-02-11T23:40:00.000+08:00

*when u try ur best but u dont succeed.

*when u get wad u wan but not what u need.

*when u feel so tired but u cant sleep.

*stuck in reverse.

*and the tears come streaming down your face.

*when u lose something u cant replace.

*when u love someone but it goes to waste.

*could it be worse?.

*i promise u i will learn from my mistake.

2008-02-11T00:32:00.001+08:00

i went out on sat. First to my coach house den to geylang. not the lorong but geylang serai. hahax. went to watch kuda kepang. quite interesting actually. it was my first time watching. i thought dat it will be quite bored. but it turn out otherwise. i went to watch wif Bad and his fren. the most interesting part is when they like kena possesed. was nice. quite hilarious. hahax.=)=)
thought of watchin it again dis sat.hmmm.

I WANT TO CHANGE JOB.!!!

2008-02-08T02:56:00.001+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!!

On the first day of chinese new yr, my family members went to ECP for a bbq.
hahax. its quite fun. its been a long time since i go to a family occasion. most of em were there.
me and dayah thought of walking all the way to Mc but its quite far. till now i'm having muscle ache due to the walking. hahax. we wanted to buy ice-cream but it the end we bought one, onli dat its the $1 type wif bread. yum!
we were trying to do running man and guess what. my sister SUX at it.lol.=)
i was awake all the time and we were talking. playing fire "cracker" and so.
By 3 most of em went to sleep and some went back.=)=).
We took some pictures too. Look AT Dayah its hilarious.lol.

starting the fire.baby.

halfway through.

he's watchin another succeed.

Finally.

the aftermath.

lol.my mother say never laugh with ur mouth full!!=)

they are realated.haha.=)

BYE!!
C YA SOON!!

2008-02-05T23:50:00.001+08:00

Don't gamble ppl. it kills u.! really. addiction.

Till this day i keep dreaming about him. i try to get him out of my mind but i can't.
why i keep dreaming about him? i wonder.?! hmmm.haha.
this few days are ok. nothing really happen except to pick up the calls and entertain customer who wanna order sushi. haish.sianx.

and my stomach hurt now.really hurt. feel like shitting. haha.
sound disgusting rite.haha.

yest Bernice call me to ask me whether i wanna play mahjong wif Felix. at Holland V.
so far la seh.haha. and the best part is onli 2 ppl will be playing.=)

2008-01-31T00:21:00.000+08:00

i cant take it anymore.=(

2008-01-27T23:42:00.000+08:00

i'm
lovin
every
moment
of
it
.

2008-01-25T02:16:00.000+08:00

when somebody u love is no longer with u.

u will notice how cute he look, how handsome he is, how nice is he to u, how funny he is when he make u laugh, how u miss him soo much when u have nobody to talk to at night, how much u need his hug when u feel down, how much u miss his companion when u are lonely, and how u wish he is still here with u pinching your cheek=).

i knw its been long time since his death. But deep inside i miss him alot. i love him so much dat i've to let him go.=(
may we meet again in thereafter. insyallah.

i fail my o level again. wad a year ha.
patience.

2008-01-24T21:04:00.000+08:00

ARGGHHHH!! fail again!!!

i dont knw wad to do leh. so confused la. work or study???!!!

2008-01-23T16:10:00.000+08:00

GOD must have spend a lil more time time on YOU.!!

2008-01-22T16:20:00.001+08:00

i'm damn fucking tired. no idea why. quite hungry too.
when to work straight away no time to eat.
but dont knw have the urge to shit. haha.=)
now at work doin nothing. no call or wad so ever.

i'm so scared to find a guy dat can really appreciate and love me for who i am. since he passed away. i am no sure why but is just inside me. mayb i 'm scared that i cant find somebody like him. mayb la. of course i cant find somebody like him. i oso dont knw what am i thinking. complicated is the word to describe me. amzar say i'm scared to find a guy cause i'm afraid they will die. wtf. haha. ass.

i just want to run away and nebe come back.
SORRY SEEMS TO BE THE HARDEST WORD!!

2008-01-21T22:44:00.001+08:00

i didnt went to work today.
so bored.dont feel like.
so meet joanne and aylyn at hougang mall.walk around and talk at the same time.
amzar was like giving me some lecture yesterday about life. bucket carrier all this stuff. hmm. wad he say is quite true la. asking me why am i so happy go lucky?. hmmm. not really ah. i'm not so happy go lucky am i?. mayb onli on the outside. not in the inside.

i want to sleep early everyday so dat i can dream about of him all the time.=) sigh.

2008-01-20T13:59:00.000+08:00

dreeamss=). but dis dream wont ever come true.he will always be by my side. thank god!!

man u win again 0-2.hahax. but wtf arsenal win too. bloody kuku.
working later at 4. sianx. "Gd evening sakae sushi delivery nisa speaking how can i help".hahax.
My parent and my sister went to mustafa and left me alone at home. always go mustafa dont knw wad so fun la. i dislike goin there cause too many bangla. they will thought that i'm a maid. like ccb.

.changes.

Friday Night.

2008-01-18T23:33:00.002+08:00

Well practically i'm at home doin nothing. and ya.
It's been 12 day since he passed away. i cant believe dat. He is gone in a blink of an eye. It is so sudden la. I know i had disappoint him. Haish. Sad as it seems but life have to go on. Move on nisa just move on. I knw life is full of regrets. Its sux big time. I guess its true-sometimes u treasure the one u love when they are no longer by your side ha. Everything happens for a reason u knw.=(

dis is wad he wrote to me::
hey..skodol...hahahaks..i do hav those feelings 4 u...if only i cud hav u..bt thgs will never workout...im nw diff den last time..e way i love,treat a gal is totally diff..nisa since we cntct back..i always scared to face u..bcos my feelings towards u...is still dere around me..tk penah berubah...i afraid u cnt accpt e way i treat u...(if only we r togther la..)bear tis in mind no matter wat..my LOVE 4 U WILL NVR FADE!!!trust me...tkcr love..